Patience is not my virtue

I think I'm supposed to learn a lesson. I'm not quite sure what that is yet.

We can't all have freckles...

It has been recalled to my attention that I am a very freckly girl. I have freckles on my arms, my chest, my back, my ears, and my face. How fortunate! When I was a kid my father told me this story about how my Aunt Elaine used to be covered in freckles. She was so freckly that soon they became so dense that all of freckles turned into a giant coat of freckles and he skin became an entirely new colour. I thought this was the coolest thing and secretly wished that I would become so freckly that my freckles would turn into a blob that covered my entire skin. Such was not the case for me. I was left splattered in the summertime with pigments of colour, but nothing lasting. Only later, when I was about fourteen, did I notice that my Aunt Elaine had freckles. Tons of them. Either she turned coats once and was going to turn again, or she had never turned at all. Now my dad is a pretty good story-teller. He has yet to deny the existence of Santa Claus. It's pretty remarkable. I decided not to call his bluff. And accepted once more that I was bound to be another freckly kid.

Mr. Dungbeetle

I think I have a new favorite movie.

Thank you for giving me permission to feel but not trying to manipulate the shape of those emotions.

"Life is worth the scary parts."

SEE THIS FILM!

Short Term Change

My ex is .... is my friend
Maybe I should ... learn that people view me with kinder eyes than I view myself
I love ... movies that make you sob and Daniel Day Lewis (ie the Crucible)
I don't understand ... a good deal of me right now
I lost my ... nerve
People would say that I'm ... more put together than I actually am
Sex is ... my body's longing for immortality
Love is ... not something to be taken lightly but is always something to be shared
Somewhere, someone is ... one of the most amazing persons I know
I will always ... love trees
Forever is ... not having to finish this thought
I think the current President is ... increasing the level of disbelief and apathy among the newest generation of voters
I woke up this morning ... dreaming I was singing alto in Peter Pan the opera
Life is full of ... dandelion seeds
My past ... is my joyful companion of experience
I get annoyed when ... double back on self doubt
I wish ... happiness for loved ones and an increased desire to give
My dog ... is missing me
Tomorrow I'm going to ... watch Oklahoma yet again
I have no tolerance for people who ... don't try to understand others
If I had a million dollars I would ... build a house for someone on extreme home makeover
Sometimes I want to ... live in the woods
Home is ... my family, wherever they may be
We are ... alone. If just for a moment
This weekend ... was a dream
I understand ... I need creative outlets
If I had a chance ... I would wake up cuddling next to someone I love watching the sunrise. (This never changes)

Unweaving a web of words

Why do we prolong talking when a single conversation can lift us up out of the labrynth we've created for ourselves?

It's a lesson I should know by heart by now. And even though I know in mind it's always better to talk things out, I'm always suprised by how good it feels to meet someone in the middle of difficulty. So thanks.

Not you nor none of yer kin folk neither

Ohhhhhhhhhhhh-klahoma!

Jist makes me wunt to be onstage er ride a horse er sumpin'

...

I feel so...

I have something to say to you, River

River, my thoughts slide down you.
Breaking against your shoreline.
Slipping around your edges.
Pooling in moments of stillness.
River, I'd like to know you.
I'd like to understand when I
can't feel my heart if it's somewhere
caught in a system of rapids.
I feel like I'm handled by you.
I'm subservient to your every ripple.
Bending with the waves caused by
the elements or the tide of others.
River, I'm lost in you.
I'm turning in over myself.
Drowning in your merciful bliss.
Drenched by your constant attention.
River, I am your vessel.
Use me as you will.
But guide my mind to somewhere
where the seas are gentle and wide.