Certain friends of mine have inspired me to try the Honors Program again. In an attempt to get into it again I decided to read Anna Karenina. I figured if its good enough for Oprah its good enough for me. (I don't really base all of my decisions off of that woman. I had wanted to read Anna Karenina before.) Well, all I have to say is Tolstoy is deceptive. I read The Death of Ivan Illych last year and it was a quick read. Needless to say I didn't know Anna was an epic 900 pages. I should have known better; I mean, Tolstoy did write War and Peace.
I didn't like Ivan so I don't really know why I took a crack at Anna Karenina. There was something about a screaming, dying man that just didn't do it for me in Ivan. But Anna is surprisingly good. I'm trying to read 100 pages a day, which is a lot easier to do when a book is not like reading a driver's manual... or pilot light instructions. :) My favorite book is also by a Russian--Crime and Punishment. So now I just want to eat Borscht and listen to my friends who served Russian-speaking missions. Plus, it's awesome that Russians have about six names. I would be referred to as Emily Diane, Emmie, Emilia Diana, and Evelyn Daphne (that shows how random they are sometimes). Go land of the Rus!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
Inadequacies
I'm home. It felt so good to see Caitlin, Jackie, Sheila, and Brian today. It amazes me that six months have passed since I have seen them last. So much has happened in that time and despite all of the change that has occurred in our lives, talking to them is like sinking into my favorite easy chair. Not that my friends are easy. ;)
I know that I should never compare my own progress in life to anyone else's, but sometimes I find it difficult to not feel like a slug. Some of my new friends amaze me. They are the types that are pulling a zillion different degrees in college, maintaining a 4.0, applying to grad schools at places most people dream of, running their own non-profit organizations, upholding church callings, working, being in plays, and still managing to have dance parties in their apartments. I love them; they challenge me and make me focus on what is important to me in my life. I don't know. I guess I wonder what I'm supposed to be doing right now. Where am I supposed to be? I've got all these loose ends that I don't tie up because I'm not sure which ones should be tied.
Tomorrow I want to go swimming. I want to go to the library and check out some books for my Honors requirements. I want to go hiking. I want to talk to my sister. I want to prepare my devotional for Sunday evening. I want to go see Caitlin's show. I want to call a close counselor friend of mine and ask if I can volunteer for any of her programs.
Somethings bound to succeed. I'll figure out what I"m supposed to do somehow.
I know that I should never compare my own progress in life to anyone else's, but sometimes I find it difficult to not feel like a slug. Some of my new friends amaze me. They are the types that are pulling a zillion different degrees in college, maintaining a 4.0, applying to grad schools at places most people dream of, running their own non-profit organizations, upholding church callings, working, being in plays, and still managing to have dance parties in their apartments. I love them; they challenge me and make me focus on what is important to me in my life. I don't know. I guess I wonder what I'm supposed to be doing right now. Where am I supposed to be? I've got all these loose ends that I don't tie up because I'm not sure which ones should be tied.
Tomorrow I want to go swimming. I want to go to the library and check out some books for my Honors requirements. I want to go hiking. I want to talk to my sister. I want to prepare my devotional for Sunday evening. I want to go see Caitlin's show. I want to call a close counselor friend of mine and ask if I can volunteer for any of her programs.
Somethings bound to succeed. I'll figure out what I"m supposed to do somehow.
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