Inadequacies

I'm home. It felt so good to see Caitlin, Jackie, Sheila, and Brian today. It amazes me that six months have passed since I have seen them last. So much has happened in that time and despite all of the change that has occurred in our lives, talking to them is like sinking into my favorite easy chair. Not that my friends are easy. ;)

I know that I should never compare my own progress in life to anyone else's, but sometimes I find it difficult to not feel like a slug. Some of my new friends amaze me. They are the types that are pulling a zillion different degrees in college, maintaining a 4.0, applying to grad schools at places most people dream of, running their own non-profit organizations, upholding church callings, working, being in plays, and still managing to have dance parties in their apartments. I love them; they challenge me and make me focus on what is important to me in my life. I don't know. I guess I wonder what I'm supposed to be doing right now. Where am I supposed to be? I've got all these loose ends that I don't tie up because I'm not sure which ones should be tied.

Tomorrow I want to go swimming. I want to go to the library and check out some books for my Honors requirements. I want to go hiking. I want to talk to my sister. I want to prepare my devotional for Sunday evening. I want to go see Caitlin's show. I want to call a close counselor friend of mine and ask if I can volunteer for any of her programs.

Somethings bound to succeed. I'll figure out what I"m supposed to do somehow.