Just some lines

The Alienation of Myself

Today I walked away from myself
wanting to feel lost
in a way that was sensational
rather than a numbing actuality

So at peace in my complacency
it silently frightens
and feeds my need to leave
a home I've never felt was mine.

I wonder if I've begun to unearth
a past written only
in the corners of a memory told
by family come and gone.

Filling up an artificial longing
created by circumstance
and the lack of regret, I will
discover I knew more than I feel.




Lyrics

David Hopkins- Amazing song he sang on Friday night. It reminds me of my grandparents. And in fact I think about you Nana and Pop Pop.

"Today I woke to a silence. It hit me like a rock. I've letters and books that you've left. I don't read things anymore."

"I once was someone's something. And still I would complain. Now I am no one's anything. I live by swallowing my pain. You know I live by swallowing my pain."

"I sing to remember. And I drink to forget. People's words don't mean anything. Your words will never leave my head. You know your words, they'll never leave my head."

"All that I have done. All that I have said. I wanna take it all back. Tell you that you're beautiful instead."

"I get visions of you. Impossible to shape. And I hope when I die it's you that I see when I wake. I hope it's you. I hope it's you. I hope it's you that I see when I wake."

David Hopkins again- Reminds me of a lot of things. I love you, Rob. I'm glad we're talking. This is for you. For getting over the hard parts. And a bit for me.

"One of these days when you're going through a phase while skies are stalking you. Love is not a honeymoon. But nothing I can say will change your mind. One of these days when I've fallen out of place to someone else with bigger hands taking calls and making plans. I've seen in written in a stone. Did I lie? Did I say everybody's gonna win today? Don't be so nice you pay the price. Tell me something you don't believe. I can see that you've been sold with a ribbon wrapped around you. I can read you like a poem. I know what you know but I don't wanna know."

"One of these days when you're running out of ways of saying poor old lonely you. Maybe I'll be lonely too. I'll walk you all the long way home. Did I lie? Did I say everybody's gonna win today? Don't be so nice you pay the price. Tell me something you don't believe. I can see that you've been sold with a ribbon wrapped around you. I can read you like a poem. And I know what you know, but I don't wanna know."

"You have your reasons. I have mine. You have your reasons. I'm on my side. Yeah, I'm on my side. I'm on my side."



You'll get through this, my love. We've gotten through so much together. I'm on your side.